So ronery!

H leaves tomorrow for 6 1/2 long weeks away in rainy, humid Texas… Technically last night was our last night together since tonight he will be staying at a hotel then tomorrow at about 4am he will be up and off to MPPS (or what ever the acronym is!) then off to the airport. It sucks since I really didn't get any alone time with the hubby. Yes I get he wants to see his friends and vice-versa, but I will miss him the most! I wanted just a few hours to just be together :( Waa! I'm trying to be positive. I mean I *might* get to see him when he graduates Basic, but of course this all depends on our $ situation. Whether we fly or drive, it will be expensive, especially after you factor in hotel costs. Boo. Also H doesn't get leave after Basic, so basically Aidan and I only get to see him for the weekend because he has to report for his tech school on Monday. Then his training lasts about 5 months. I hope we get a place we want for his station…and that our condo sells ASAP! Since we can't put it up for sale until June of this upcoming year, then I have to wait until someone buys it. Ugh. That could be a LONG time away from H. Well just hope for the best for us please! TIA.

The calendar is NOT my friend

I can't believe in a week I will be a single mom. H leaves the 29th and I am not ready. I will get to see him mid-September, but then he will be gone for about 5 months at tech school, then we will be moving. When I think of it like that I semi-panic. I mean, yes I am excited to move to a new place, but at the same time scared to leave the familiar. What if we get stationed somewhere cold. I hate cold weather! What if we get stationed over-seas? I will have to learn a new language. Hello I'm just getting to understand H when he speaks Spanish! My panic has become so bad that I've even contemplated me just staying here for a few months after we get H's station… Is that so bad? I mean we can't sell the condo until June of this upcoming year and with the way the market is we won't really make any money, etc, etc. But I would love to get a house somewhere nicer. I don't know. I'm just really unsure of things. I don't think H realizes how much I feel like I'm sacrificing for him to do this. Yes, I realize he will be going through a hard time in basic and then when he's training being separated from Aidan and I. But he only has to worry about himself. As where I have to worry about bills and Aidan and work and everything else. I'm freaking out!

Also I am also PO'd at friends and family. Well my mom understands since she is the product of a military family and was married to a military man. But my friends and Johnn's family don't get it. His family keeps asking what I'm going to do while Johnn is gone. What the hell do you think I'm going to do?! I'm going to do the same thing I'm doing now. Work and well work! The only thing that will be different is I will be going to bed without the hubby. My friends are pissing me off because whenever the subject of Johnn being gone comes up they say "we will hang out!". Yeah. Right. Because we hang out so much now. It'll be even harder when I don't have anyone to watch Aidan so I can get out of the house. I just know I will be lonely and sad :*( I wish things would have worked out to where the condo was rented out and I could quit my job and move up north to my mom's. We went up there this past weekend because my cousin was in town from Texas visiting (he's in the AF). It was so nice. Aidan and I played outside in the grass, slid down my little bro and sis's treehouse slide. All things you can not do in the 110+ degree weather in the valley. I wish we could have stayed at least another day :(

Well I only meant for this to be a tiny quick thing, but I guess I needed to get a lot out ;p So if you made it through the whole thing you deserve a cookie!

I should find the time...

To blog. But yeah, that doesn't always happen. Well not much is new. Aidan will be 1 in a few weeks. Johnn will be leaving in a few weeks and I'm still dealing with crap from my accident. The HOA lady is a bitch! I seriously don't know what her issue is, but people like her need to have their ass kicked by karma. She is meanest person I have ever come in contact with. But I digress. I really shouldn't be stressing as much as I am, but I can't help it. It just seems like everything happens at once and it sucks. Ugh… Hopefully everything will work out and I can finally have my BP return to normal! So please keep us in your thought and prayers that the accident/HOA crap gets resolved with me having to shell out $$ and that H gets through Basic with ease and that I'm able to handle it all on my own. Thanks!